It's colder than before...

The snow has stopped falling for the moment, though it is still cold here in Vermont. Very cold. Eighteen degrees or so cold. I'll be going back home today, or home-ish (Home is where the heart is?), which is New York for the moment, where it is also comparatively cold. I'll be back soon enough.

This weekend with Amy has been nice, though it seems she always works when I get to come down, not that I can blame her - working at a mall around holiday season. We make time for each other, cherish what we have and whatnot. This upcoming week is my short week an my long weekend. I'll be back up Thursday evening, staying for the weekend (during which Amy will of course be working). Gives me time to stick around home, earn bonus points with the family. I may need to cash them in eventually.

On Thursday, I got out of work early, drove down to the Albany mall, strolled into to the jewelry store and bought Amy a Promise Ring. I'd been planning it for a little while prior, so it wasn't entirely on a whim, as far as buy promise rings less than three weeks into a relationship goes. There wasn't even really any hesitation. Sure, it seems like it has only been a short time, really I suppose it has.

Love Recklessly.

On my way back from the mall, Amy mentioned via text message that she was having a bit of a rough day at work. Then, I missed my exit. Then I missed the next exit - intentionally. Then the next one, and the next one. The internal conflict was there for a bit. The what ifs. What if my car breaks down and I can't drive back to make it to work the next day? What if I get stranded there? Or get in trouble? Having convinced myself I had no reason to believe any of that would happen, as I had made the drive several times before, I continued. An hour and a half later I was at the Diamond Run mall, on a surprise visit. The Amything was pleased. We spent a couple hours together, I gave her the ring (I couldn't wait, I guess), some cuddles and then I drove back home - Another hour and a half.

Love is in the act of loving.

I dread having to leave, to go out to sea... to have to leave her behind. What more can be done than use the time we have now to strengthen the bond enough to last when I can't be around all the time? This is a refusal to let go of something great. Will it be difficult? Of course, I'd expect so. Perhaps it's about time something difficult came our way, everything to this point has been easy. Falling for her has been easy. Finding the subtle compatibilities between us as been easy.

We still have time. Hopefully, a lot more time.